Later in the evening, I went to Shania’s house. We left her house for Chitis, it was a bit scanty when we got there. I located the table closer to the one I shared with Cindy the day Shania gave me her number and led her to it. We settled and placed our order when a waiter came. We kept gisting till they served our order.
“You know this is the first time I’m actually taking you out on a date” I started after we ate for a while.
“Yea, and I’m surprised” she replied looking at me.
“There is something I wish to tell you, hope you wouldn’t find it offensive”
“Ok, what is it?”
Before I left for Shania’s house, I was reciting the lines I will use. I wanted to officially ask her out to be my girlfriend. Sometimes when in the comfort of our room, everything seems easy, but when faced with reality, the opposite becomes the case.
Everything I recited varnished from my mind when I needed them. I stared into my food searching my mind for the words I had rehearsed more than a hundred times but couldn’t find them. To make matters worse, each time I raise my head, she will be looking at me.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked as that was the only thing that came to my mind.
“How am I looking at you? Wait are you ok? You are sweating” she said feeling my fore head with her palm.
I didn’t realize that I was already sweating in a cool environment. It wasn’t just my forehead, my palms were sweating too which happens whenever I’m nervous.
“Yes I’m fine. Shania, I’m feeling nervous because for some hours now, I have been reciting a speech which I prepared to present to you but I can’t even find my words any more”. I said smiling sheepishly.
“Come on, is that why you are sweating under this air condition? Ok whatever it is, say it out any how you want?” she said smiling.
This is someone I was already used to but now I couldn’t even look at her face. I tried relaxing myself by taking a sip from my drink to calm my nerves before I continued.
“Shania” I started. “Over time I have found myself thinking more about you. There is this happiness and comfort that I feel whenever I’m around you. I want us to redefine this friendship. I want a relationship with you. I know I have done a lot of sh*t which you know. They say ‘sometimes we tend to lose a diamond while picking stones’. I don’t want to tow that line. You are diamond and I don’t want to lose you picking stones. I don’t know if I deserve you, but if you still find me worthy, please will you be my girlfriend?”
I felt like a load has been lifted off my shoulder when I said my mind. I relaxed back on the chair while we stared at each other. After a while, she cleared her throat and smiled.
“Believe me you caught me unawares. I was expecting the opposite of what you just told me now. Purity you have enough girl drama in your hands already, do you think adding me to it won’t cause you more trouble? I think what you should do now is to sort yourself out first. When that is done then you can know where you stand.
I don’t want to bring more troubles to your life. Don’t see this as a rejection of your offer, I pray you understand me. I want the best for you. I prefer us the way we are now to how you want us to be”
“You are not going to cause me any troubles. I don’t have girl issues anymore. The only girl I still have something to do with is Precious, who right now I don’t know where I stand with her”
“Then go and settle things with her. Precious alone is enough trouble for you. Go and get things straight with her. Remember what I told you before, a bird at hand is worth more than ten in the bush. Go and make Peace with her” she said with smiles.
I looked at Shania and asked myself “were in the name of God is this girl from” I couldn’t fathom it. We spent the rest of the time discussing random issues. I asked her to come spend the weekend in my house but she declined. She said we needed as much time apart as possible for me to make the right decision.
When I got home, I thought so much about what Shania said. She was right, I needed to fix my life. It’s true that I needed to straighten things with Precious. I made up my mind to settle things with Precious that night. I pulled out my phone and dialled her number. While it rang, it struck me that I haven’t even asked her where and who she was staying with. I re-dialled after she didn’t pick for the first time.
“Hello, good evening” she greeted. Precious doesn’t greet me except when she is pissed with me. That has always been her sign of telling me that she is pissed with me.
“Good evening, how are you?”
“I’m fine, sorry I missed your first call”
“It’s ok, where are you?”
“Why do you ask? What do you care?”
“Precious please I want us to settle this once and for all. Please where are you?”
“Don’t worry I will come to your place If you want us to see ok”
“Ok then Can you come around? I want us to talk”
“Ok, I will call you when I get to the gate” she said and dropped the call.
That is a typical Precious, she acts all formal whenever she is pissed. She called after about an hour and I went to the gate to pick her. We barely said a word to each other on our way back to my house.
When we got to my house, she went straight to my reading table and sat, fiddling with her phone. She declined everything I offered her. After several minutes of silence she decided to speak up.
“You needed us to talk?” she asked.
“Yea, but first why are you acting this way?”
“Purity forget the way I’m acting, let’s talk”
“We can’t talk with you acting like this. Precious I know this past week has been very unpleasant for us. I know a lot of things must have been going through your mind. I’m sorry for not asking where you have been staying all these while. With the whole thing that has been happening, it seriously escaped my mind. I’m very sorry”
“Purity since almost two weeks now, you have not cared to ask where I have been staying, so much for someone that claims to care. It’s ok.” She said not looking up.
“I’m very sorry”
“It’s ok, what is it you want us to discuss?”
“Precious, I want us to stop this. I don’t want us doing this believing that one day feelings will grow. I can’t give you that love which you want from me. I have tried to develop that feeling but it’s not forthcoming. Please let’s just end this once and for all”
“Purity, I have two questions to ask you”
“Yea go on”
“Are you doing this because of Oge?”
“No, I already ended things with Oge a very long time ago. This has nothing to do with her”
“Ok. Secondly, am I being a disturbance to you?”
“No, come on. You are not and can never be. I just want us to stop deceiving ourselves. The more we are into this, the more we might prevent each other from meeting the right people. Don’t get me wrong, if only the hands of time could be turned, I know we would have made the best pair.”
She left the table and came to the bed where I was sitting. She kissed my fore head before circling me into an embrace. We hugged for a while before she whispered to my ears, “can I at least pass the night here for the last time?”
“You are not just going to pass the night here, we are going to fetch your bag from where ever you are staying back to this place” I replied her.
Who is Precious without cry, I knew she was crying already behind me so I held her patting her back. No matter the trouble I will have with Precious, I can’t forget the road we have travelled. If things were different, I know we would have built something great.
The following morning we woke up refreshed. The previous night was one of its kind. We made passionate love that left us both used. She cooked and after we ate, we left to fetch her bag. To my greatest surprise, she has been staying in a hotel all along.
When we came back home, I sent Shania a message telling her that I have straightened things between Precious and myself and also there is no need for us to be apart anymore. She sent a text back to me which read “I’m happy you have made peace with her. I still want us to be apart from each other for a while”
I didn’t understand what she meant by being apart for a while and why. I dialled her number, after it rang twice, she picked the third time.
“What is the problem? Are you fed up with us or something?” I asked.
“Come to my house let’s talk” she replied and dropped the call.
I dressed up and left for her house, telling Precious that I was going to get something in school. I met Shania eating when I got to her house. After exchanging pleasantries, I allowed her to finish with her meal before bringing up the issue. Suddenly the air between us was becoming a little strange, unlike us.
After clearing the dishes, she came back and sat beside me on the bed.
“I have ended things with Precious peacefully. We ain’t dating anymore, not like we were dating before sha”
“Ok I’m happy to hear that”
“Shania nothing stops us from dating now, please I don’t want us to be apart”
“Purity listen to me. A lot of things has happened of which we both know. There is this part of me that wants to accept your proposal but there is this other part that is telling me to be careful and I’m heeding to that part. I don’t want us to rush into this. Yes I want to start something with you but it’s not something that I want to just last for a couple of months. Now that you have made Peace with Precious I want you to use this remaining time for your academics while I focus on mine. We have few months left to stay here, let’s use that for our studies, ok?”
“Shania I don’t want something that will last a few months with you, I want something serious not a fling”
“Purity, I have thought about this, what if we don’t see again after graduation? I can’t do a phone relationship. I can’t do a distant relationship”
“We can always find a way to see after graduation. I know it’s going to be difficult but if we try our best we can pull it through”
“Ok this is the plan I have, after graduation, let us work out NYSC posting to the same state. That way we can be together and build a relationship, but until then, Purity please let’s be apart”
“And what if we don’t end up in the same state?”
“Then we were never meant to be. Purity I’m sorry but this was a hard decision for me to make. Please don’t push it any further. I don’t want you to make me change my mind which I know you can do if you press on. Just do this for me ok?”
I gave up trying to convince her and decided to let it be her way. She also suggested we cut communication for the rest of the semester and try not to run into each other as possible as we can. We decided to work our NYSC posting to Lagos after graduation. We had the last round of a passionate ‘goodbye till we meet again’ se*x before I left.
Two months after our graduation NYSC posting came out. Before we left school, I told Precious that I will be working my NYSC posting to Akwa-Ibom State while she said she will work hers to Abuja. I wanted to keep her at arms length. No coincidence should bring us together again. I wanted to start something with Shania on a fresh note with no one from the past interfering.
On that faithful morning, I left for the cyber café to print my call up latter. I was in the cyber café when I got a message from Shania.
“Purity I’m very sorry, maybe we are not meant to be together. I am posted to Akwa-Ibom. I love you Purity, even if we never see again, don’t forget that”
After I read the message, my sweat buds all opened. I was sweating everywhere. When it got to my turn, I wrote down the info required to print out the letter on a piece of paper and handed it over to the café attendant. I turned my back to the computer while she logged on to NYSC portal. A lot of things were going through my mind.
“What if I was posted to another state?”
“Does it mean that this working of NYSC posting is a scam?”
“What if I am posted to Maiduguri or any of these distressed states?”
” What will happen to I and Shania?”
I was still lost in thought when the attendant tapped me and said “Akwa-Ibomayaya”. I turned and asked her what she said.
“You are posted to Akwa-Ibom State”
I couldn’t contain my joy when I heard that. I hugged and kissed the girl shouting. Everybody in the café turned looking at me while the girl looked down feeling shy and shocked.
When I realized the attention I had drawn to myself, I mellowed down, and collected the letter from the girl who couldn’t even look at my face anymore. I pulled out my wallet and paid for the service. Before I left I slipped a thousand naira into her hands “Sorry for the kiss” I whispered to her and left.
Outside the café, I pulled out my phone and dialled Shania. Immediately she picked I shouted “We are meant to be. I’m posted to Akwa-Ibom too oo”. The news must have caught her by surprise as she kept quiet not saying anything. I had to say hello twice before she cleared her throat. I noticed she was sniffing.
“What is the problem? Are you crying?” I asked.
“No, no I’m not, I’m just so happy” she said amidst sniffing.
“Now you see, we are meant to be, we are meant to be” I said jumping around in front of the café.
“Yes, yes we are” she replied now laughing.
We talked for some minutes before saying the good byes to continue when I get home. I was about to dial Shania back when I got home when a message entered my phone from Precious. As I clicked it open, I couldn’t believe what I saw
“Baby they posted me to Akwa-Ibom.
I have been trying to call you but your number has been busy.
Call me back, hope you have checked your posting?”
Just when you are trying to run away from the past and nature twists your arm.
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